A Trip To Karabakh

I cannot get my childhood out my head in the past couple weeks. Nostalgia is an old acquaintance of mine whose visits are no longer welcome. This time my cousin’s death prompted it to pay me a visit. This clever magician has its distinguished seat at the table of our worst enemies such as worry, greed, hate, dishonesty, and fear among others. This one pretends to be a close friend, one who has only good intentions, but under the elaborate disguise is a ruthless controlling pig with the singular objective of getting in our way of living the current moment to its fullest. I have seen most of the tricks this one plays to trap us in its web. Once captured, it infects our lens through which we see life, the world, and ourselves and causes all kinds of distortions. The visits usually follow a familiar song, some picture, an event, or something that causes us to long for something that is not in the beautiful and exciting current moment.

A Trip to Karabakh certainly didn’t help. This Georgian movie is terrible (to put it mildly). Old neighbor’s usage of the Armenian struggle as a vehicle for delivering some muddled messages about its own struggle is a repeat of the same old, showcasing its true character. This reminded me yet again how important it is for Armenians in the diaspora to remain united. For example, having two churches in America and in some countries is absolutely not helpful! I hope there is someone in the world who can give me at least one theological argument or one good reason why the two churches should remain separate. May this song remind all Armenians who stumble upon my insignificant corner on the Internet about all that which we share.

Armenians in Armenia will have no issues partaking in a common culture but there are many issues they cannot raise because of the political mess inherited from being situated in that restless corner of the world for thousands of years. But I know that each family and every individual deep down looks upon an extended family member, a friend in the diaspora as a source of support when all else fails.


  1. I am not sure that I want Nostalgia to disappear in my life. Even with it’s sometimes overly exaggerated fond rememberances, I often long for the return to a time, place, or relationship that seems better than current reality.
    Actually, I may warmly welcome it at “my table” of distinguished guests. Guest’s like childhood dreams, friends who wanted to give not take, family that provided comfort and non-judgemental advice, a Dad that sacrificed sleep and other things to give me time, a Mom that made no “class distinctions” between people, a Haitian immigrant that taught me God lives and works in people of different colors and an Armenian teenager who was an example of determination that overcame many roadblocks including my bad singing along the way.
    One might say that these guest’s are not Nostalgia but real people and events. I know, however that what I remember may not be totally correct. I most likely have embellished many of the memories to the extent that they have become nostalgic. Who cares, I still long for them, real or partially real!
    I know a little of the Armenian struggle, but I also know of the pride that Armenians have in their heritage. Yes, heartache and tragedy are part of your history, but adversity has resulted in a people that have contributed and continues to contribute much to the world. Many cultures that have had bad things happen to them HAVE NOT and DO NOT contribute. They only take not give!
    I hope there are good memories of your cousin, and yes, even nostalgic ones that God will bring to mind!
    Please note that there may be two Armenian churches, but the problem is not just an Armenian problem. There are way too many different groups that call themselves “Christian”. A southern Baptist once told me the reason for so many little Baptist churches in the south. He said that one group or family in the church would get into a fight and just move across the “holler” and start another church. Well, it is time that all of us who claim the name of Christ to put our differences aside, band together and create unity. We will not be able to overcome the massive discrimination aimed at Christians, in America and around the world, unless we do!

  2. You said everything perfectly, Mike. I was trying to stress the point of not sacrificing the present, not living in the past, and not living for the future. Thanks for the rest of your points. As always, they’ve added a great deal.

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